HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHO!!

I'm so jealous!!! I want some Yoosu!! Yoosu!! Don't wanna see Yoochun kissing some other girl. Can he just kiss Junsu instead? Hehehehe.

Now... can I really watch Dating on Earth? It seems that there are lots of kissing scenes in this movie. That girl sure is lucky!!! But as much as I don't want to watch this, I think I will have to watch this. I love Micky's long hair and I won't be able to resist him. Gosh he's so hot in this movie!

♫ I cleaned my room yesterday from 4pm to 4am. 12 long hours of cleaning! Whew! I'm glad that it's over. I usually clean my room 2-3 times a year and this is the 2nd(?) time I cleaned my room for 2009. I make it a point to start the new year with a clean room. Hehehe. I definitely accumulated lots of trash this year.

( Before and after pics )

When I was cleaning my cabinets, I saw somethings I made before. I was able to make a Rurouni Kenshin character profile just by watching it over and over. I was also able to make a Rurouni Kenshin episode guide though it was incomplete. Also, I saw in my chest of junk lots of printouts of Akanishi Jin's pictures as well as Kame's and Kat-tun's. Imagine all that ink! Hahaha! Maybe that's the reason why my printer ink does not last for a long time. Hmm... for 2 years I accumulated around 40+ printouts of Jin's pics but how come for TVXQ I have less than 30 printouts in 3 years.

I just hope this clean room will last for long. I'm sure once I go back to work, my room will be messy again.

♫ I dreamt about TVXQ twice this morning. First dream was that the 5 of them were in my room sitting on top of my desk lined up as if on firing squad. I came in and asked them to pose for me. I took pics of them using the DSLR that I was holding and it seemed that Jaejoong was the one I was focusing on. As for the other dream, Micky and I were adopted by this family and we had to do whatever they wanted. It seemed that Micky and I were in a relationship since we hugged. I was asked to kiss Junsu which I did. In my mind I was telling myself that it was wrong to kiss Junsu because of Micky but Junsu was such a good kisser. I guess even in my dream I won't be able to resist Junsu.

♫ 2010 is coming to an end! It's only the 30th but I can already hear the fireworks going off around me. It's making me really annoyed because it's not yet New Year's eve. I'd like to have some peace and quiet. My vacation is also coming to an end on Sunday. *sigh* Back to work. TT___TT Don't want to go to work yet. Eventhough I have nothing else to do at home but to eat, eat, and log on the internet, I still don't want to work. Can I earn money while lying down the bed? LMAO!

♫ I want a DBSK calendar! I don't think I'll be able to have one so I'll try to make one. Just print out a calendar with their pics on it. Kinda depressing. Stupid SME. Nways, I'll definitely watch Kohaku tomorrow.

You're my sunshine after the rain
You're the cure against my fear and my pain
Cause I'm losing my mind
When you're not around
It's all... it's all...
It's all because of you.

♫ Talented
♫ Persevering
♫ Lovely
♫ Faithful
♫ Respectful
♫ Inspiring
♫ Diligent
♫ Hardworking
♫ Determined
♫ Dashing
♫ Purposeful
♫ Handsome

To these 5 wonderful men, HAPPY 6TH ANNIVERSARY!!!

I hope to see more from you guys. Eventhough a lot of things have happened with the lawsuit and all, I hope that you guys won't cease to amaze us. Show the world how strong you are. Don't let other people let you down. I also hope that your friendship will continue to stay strong until the end. Whatever happens, you have each other to rely on. Don't let other people ruin the friendship you guys have. It's good that you have come this far even if you stumbled on the way. I just hope that we'll be able to continue seeing you guys in the future.

As for your fans, we'll always be here waiting. Whether something good or something bad happens, we'll still be here for you guys. We'll give you all the support that you need. Saranghae!

It's Christmas again!! Christmas is my favorite holiday. Too bad that I didn't feel the Christmas spirit this year. Though I did feel the heavy traffic, late closure of malls, lack of cash and some fireworks cracking. Didn't see much Christmas lights. Didn't hear a lot of Christmas carols, well except for the ones in my iPod. Well I hope next year I'll be able to feel the spirit of Christmas.

This year my family decided to rent a place for our reunion. Instead of having the reunion in our house, we rented the clubhouse in our village. Everyone's growing up. There are lots of kids already and our house will be too crowded if we stayed there. This year's reunion has been fun as well. There were games courtesy of my sister, Ykar. There were prizes and exchange gift. At least it's not boring anymore unlike last year.

Here are some pictures:

( Family pictures )

*sigh* I guess as I grew up, my Christmases have been changing. I miss the times when my sister stays in our house after our Christmas reunion since we're all on Christmas vacation. I miss the thought of having a Santa Clause even if it was really my mom who's Santa. I miss those loved ones who were all with us before but now have left us. Now that we have a new generation in the family, it's our generations duty to make the kids' Christmases a fun one.

Next week it's going to be a new year.

I hope that 2010 will be a good year to all of us. I hope it's a better year than 2009.

Merry Christmas to everyone!!!!

Wow it's one heck of a birthday!!!

I just celebrated my birthday with SHINee. Let's just say we fetched them from the airport. Hahahaha!

I got the news last Wednesday that they were arriving on 26 Nov for the Friendship Concert today at CCP. As the fangirl that we are, my friends glovezz, xiao_tian_jelly, gracie_grace and I went to NAIA Terminal 1 to welcome SHINee. Jel, Gracie and I met at Glorietta while Glady went straight to NAIA.

We waited for around 2 hours before SHINee arrived. We first stayed inside the waiting area with the other fangirls. There wasn't a lot but still there were fangirls and fanboys there. Eventually Jel saw a friend of hers near the ramp where SHINee will pass by so we were able to go there. There was a bit of commotion because the airport guards let the fans cross and they blocked the area near the ramp. They started screaming so eventually they were asked to go back to the waiting area.

I think it was around 11:30 that SHINee went down that ramp. There were Filipino guards and Korean staff around them. A camera was even filming while they were going down the ramp. That's when the mini stampede started. When they got of the ramp and walked towards their bus, the fans followed them. Of course we followed as well. I almost slipped and my eyeglasses were almost knocked off my face. When they arrived at the bus, they closed the curtains so were weren't able to see them but someone from SHINee waved. He just waved his hand but we didn't see whose hand that was. It was a bit funny as well because all of us fangirls were blocking the way so the other cars were not able to pass by. After SHINee's bus left, the crowd dispersed almost right away.

I was able to record some videos but I didn't get a really good shot of all of them. Only 1 video with some of their faces in it. The other ones were just their backs.



Pardon my shouting of "ONEW!!!" I think I forgot that there were other members of SHINee at that time. XDDD



Wow! Imagine, I ran for SHINee when I haven't even ran for DBSK before.

I guess I can say that I did have a very fun birthday. Even if it started really boring with me just at the house doing nothing but internet surfing, it ended with a bang. Thanks SHINee for making this birthday a little bit special for me. :)

♫♫♫ I'm back after a week of being totally offline!

♫♫♫ Right now, I'm so annoyed that I could just eat a lot of ice cream. Argh! With all those things that happened during the last week, this is the only day that I am available to go to the salon to have my hair straightened. I was supposed to go yesterday but my plans changed due to some unforseen events. So now is the only day I'm free since I'm already busy these coming weeks. When I went to the salon after walking in the heat (no trike in sight), the attendant informed me that I have to wait for 4 hours before they can service me. Apparently they only have 2 attendants who can do hair straightening and both of them are servicing someone who's having her hair rebonded. Do they need 2 people just to apply hair cream and straighten the customer's hair? Damn! I don't have 4 hours to spare since I have a family reunion/dinner tonight. I got pissed off because they only have 2 employees to do 2 services? The hell! I totally wasted my time. I went there just for that and in the end I wasn't able to get the service I wanted. Now, I don't know when I can squeeze that in my schedule. Argh! I need to have my hair straightened by next Sunday for I have a party to attend. *sigh*

♫♫♫ My mom (aunt) was hospitalized last Tuesday late evening. I had to spend the night there and go to work the next day. Good thing my work starts at 12nn. I still had some time to spare. I also spent the night there last Friday. Good thing though she's coming home today. I don't think I can handle the stress and worry anymore. I want to sleep na. Hehehe. She got hospitalized due to severe UTI that had complications due to her Diabetes.

♫♫♫ I DON'T HAVE DIABETES!! YAY!! But the doctor said that it doesn't mean I can eat a lot of sweets. I still need to control my sugar since it's a bit high for the usual normal count of 70. Thank God! Now I'll try to keep my promise with the Lord - to eat less sweets and to be a good person (Meaning less harsh criticisms. Pintasera kasi ako. Hahaha!)

♫♫♫ I must study my Lean Six Sigma Training notes but I'm so lazy. I don't wanna do it. If I fail the exam tomorrow, so what? It's not as if I really wanted to undergo that training. I had no choice about it and that's why I hate it. I'll just try to browse through it.

♫♫♫ My aunt from Switzerland and her partner will arrive today! I'll be seeing her after 2 years... I think.

♫♫♫ Belated Happy 22nd Birthday Choi Seung Hyun!!! May you have more happiness and success in life. TOP hwaiting!

♫♫♫ I dreamt about Changmin the other night. I was his fake girlfriend because I had to protect him from this evil woman who wants Changmin for her own. Hehehe. This is the first time that I dreamt about Changmin without the other members around.

♫♫♫ I really miss Dong Bang Shin Ki.

♫♫♫ Just arrived from the cemetery. It's a good thing there's little traffic. There's still a lot of people there even if it's Nov 2 already. It's also nice that the weather is not so hot. When we got there I remembered the days when we stay there for a few hours when I was a kid. We usually eat breakfast and lunch there. Just being together with the dead family members. XDDD I miss it now everytime I see those families together visiting and staying with their dead. Maybe in the future I'll be able to do that again with my sisters.

♫♫♫ Right after the storm last Saturday, I went to the mall with Nana. We were also supposed to go to Asian Hospital to have a check-up. When we got to the hospital, there was no clinic. *sigh* we weren't able to call because the phone lines were down. So I still don't know the verdict if I'm Diabetic or not. Though I did promise that if I wasn't I would still lessen my sugar intake. We'll just go back next week.

♫♫♫ My aunt from Switzerland is visiting on Nov 8. Yay! I haven't seen her for 2 years, I think. Chocolates! XDDDDD

♫♫♫ I have been dreaming about TVXQ the past few days. I always dreamt about them singing together. The boys are usually singing on stage in my dreams. The setting is usually their concert. I think my heart really misses them already. I want to see them again. I'm trying my best to save money so that I could watch their concert again. I miss my boys!

♫♫♫ The new updates about the TVXQ lawsuit is really confusing and stressing me out a bit. I want it to be over already. I don't want my boys to be in pain anymore. They're hurting, I know. It's true that it was their choice, but still they don't deserve all this pain. I'm not sure if those statements I read about HoMin and their fathers were true. I hope not. Then there's SME's statement. *sigh* True or not, the statement really pisses me off. I just hope everything ends well. There's no harm in hoping for something good.

I'm scared... I'm so scared. I don't know what my fate will be. Will I be forever sick or will it be a passing illness?

I went to the doctor yesterday due to some itchiness in my body. The doctor then wanted me to be checked for 3 laboratory procedures that would test 3 different diseases. One of them is FBS (Fasting Blood Sugar). It's to determine if I have Diabetes. It took me a day before I realized that I really could have Diabetes.

Diabetes is in my genes. My grandparents and aunts in my father side all have one. They say that if your parents don't have it but your grandparents do, there's a possibility that you will have it. I talked to my mom (my aunt) about it and she said that itchiness is one of the symptoms. It was the same for her. Her arms felt really itchy so she went to the doctor and in the end she was diagnosed with Diabetes.

Now I have the same symptom. My mom said that just 1 symptom that manifests could lead to Diabetes. I'm panicking and really scared right now because I'm really convinced that I have it. My legs tend to be itchy at times and I don't know why, even my hands are itchy.

I always told myself that I'd rather die (yes, so dramatic!) than have this illness since I'm going to die then eventually. Too many complications can arise because of Diabetes. I'm not yet ready for this!! T_T

I don't want to have bad breath. I will lose my teeth. I have higher chances of being blind. I might even lose my legs. I cannot eat all those sweet pastries and cakes that I love. I have to drink medicine 3x a day for the rest of my life. I may have to inject Insulin to myself. I won't be able to spend much on myself because this disease is expensive.

I'm really not yet ready for this.

I know someone who is suffering right now because of Diabetes. He's almost blind. He's sitting on a wheel chair because he cannot stand properly anymore. I don't want that to happen to me. It's true that people could control the illness but I don't think I have that much will power. Man... this really sucks.

You might say I'm being too pessimistic... I should pray that I'm not sick. But when you already know that there's a big possibility of it happening, it's really hard to be optimistic. But I will still pray and hope very hard that this is not the case. I'm too young to have this disease. T_T

I'm really scared right now... I'll be having the test within the week and I don't think I can bear to know the results. But hey, at least it's not Cancer. Though at least with Cancer I die right away but with Diabetes, you just prolong the agony. *sigh*

Well, I'll update more when I get tested. I really hope it's just a passing illness.

I really should stop buying impulsively especially when I need the money. I want to slap myself but it's too late now. Just because I'm starting to hate my computer and my mom is buying a new one for herself, I just had to buy as well. Damn! My mom didn't even try to stop me. She just told me to go buy one if I want to. T_T talk about support. *sigh* Now I'm a bit annoyed with myself. I guess no more trips for me for 1 whole year until I finish paying for this computer.

Transferring files is really tedious. I don't want to do it anymore! 2.5 years worth of iTunes library. T_T Now I have to make one again. *sigh* My wrists were already hurting since I arrived home yesterday after buying this computer. I swear next time I would think about it more.

I'm starting to dislike this computer as well. It doesn't let me use the Alt + numbers combination (whatever you call it). I can't use those hearts, smiley face, music notes anymore. It's not even a laptop. I wonder why it won't let me do it. Anyone with a HP desktop? Maybe someone could help me on this. Hahaha. The only thing I love about this computer is that it's faster than my old one and it has a bigger screen.

Now I miss my old PC even if it's so slow now to the point that it tests my patience. *sigh*

So I guess I won't be able to go to Korea next year. T_T I have no more money! Darn it. Well it's my fault anyways. I just have to be really careful with my money now. No more new stuff for me. TT_TT


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(Off topic)

Kangin-oppa, why are you so stupid?! As much as I like you, what you did was really stupid. Can't you see that because of drinking so much alcohol, you get into trouble? Please stop drinking a lot. You're making your bandmates really sad as well as your fans. =(

( Jin's An-An porn pics. Hahaha!!! )

Shet di ko toh kinaya!

Jin in An-An magazine!! Damn!! I was not prepared when I looked at the pictures. To think that there were more pictures... I know that one of these days he'll also be featured in this magazine, but damn, I'm totally not prepared to see them. I felt so jealous!! Hahaha! I already moved on and I was surprised that I still have these feelings of possessiveness. *sigh* I cannot even explain what I felt when I saw that woman on top of Jin. Waahhh!! Lucky woman! Oh and Jin's butt is small. Hahahaha! As for that kissing picture, I can't seem to take my eyes of the woman's tongue on Jin's luscious upper lip.

Jin sure has grown up now... no more teeny-bopper Akanishi Jin. He's a MAN now!!!

I want that magazine though. I want to add it to my collection. XDDD

♫♫♫ Wow I haven't posted an entry for quite a while. Ever since I transferred teams, I haven't been online much... just every weekends. It's quite tiring backtracking my F-list. I try to go online during the weekdays but I get so lazy that I just want to chill and watch TV. XDDD



♫♫♫ I got my AADBSK 3 yesterday. Thanks x_xpaox_x! I started to watch the dvds but I skipped some of the parts especially in the Making Videos. For some reason they just bore me. -_- Will finish watching all the DVDs next weekend. Watching it just makes me miss the boys more. T_T



♫♫♫ I'm currently watching "Shining Inheritance" with Han Hyo Joo and Lee Seunggi as the main characters. I never expected that I'll like Han Hyo Joo. She's really cute and a good actress. I'm also surprised that Lee Seunggi's quite a good actor. He hasn't acted in lot of dramas but still he showed a good performance in Shining Inheritance. I also love watching him in 2 Days and 1 Night. I haven't finished watching the drama yet (28 episodes... quite long) but I think that it's a pretty good drama. The plot is nice. As usual there were twists and the characters are all interconnected. The ending was okay, just good for the drama (I like watching the endings first).



♫♫♫ GD is looking good! I think the hair suits him and his personality. Though, it kinda reminds me of Jaejoong, I dunno why. "Hearbreaker" is a nice song. Very GDish. Sounds totally like him. The MV is great too. The usage of black, white, blue and red colors in the MV is really appealing to my eyes.

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♫♫♫ SME's new girl group... f(x). Hmmm... do they look promising? Maybe because they're from SM, though I still have to see and hear from them. As for face value, the girls are not that pretty to me. Amber looks like Jonghyun! Que Horror!!! IMO, they're not that appealing. Some of the girls in SNSD are more appealing than them. I can't believe I said that some of the SNSD are appealing. Hahahahah!!! I just hope that they can deliver. People say that they have shorter training days compared to their sunbaes. I guess SME has to release another girl group to compete with 2NE1, Kara, BEG etc. SME should have just marketed CSJH and changed a bit of their style to match with the current trend.

♫♫♫ My computer is testing my patience! Agh! It's really annoying me. Grr...

♫♫♫ Must we go back to work tomorrow? Waahhh! I love long weekends! I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I just want to stay at home and be lazy. Hahahaha!!

♫ I never liked going to the dentist. Just the thought that I have to open my mouth for a long time already makes my jaw hurt. I had to go to the dentist this afternoon because of my chipped tooth. I was then informed that my wisdom teeth were already showing so I have to eventually have them removed. Waaahhh! Dental surgery. *sigh* Just thinking about it makes me have goosebumps. Well... there goes my money. Tooth extraction is quite expensive. *sigh*

♫ I've been watching some Suju clips and everytime I see Kangin, I always remember TOP. I really dunno why. There's something in their faces that makes me associate them with each other. Kangin is just like a teddy bear. I'm liking him more and more. XDDD

♫ I think CL of 2NE1 is really cute. Love her cheek bones. She looks really feisty as well. I think Dara is a camwhore. I watched one episode of 2NE1TV and I saw Dara most of the time... CL as well. In fairness to Dara, eventhough she's a camwhore, she's still cute. She doesn't annoy me that much.

♫ I must buy an external HDD but where to get the money? XDDD I need to back up a lot of files. My pc is getting slower and slower by the day. =(

♫ Slow internet connection. Argh!

♫ I need a JaeChun userpic. Must make one someday. kekeke.

♫ New work tomorrow! I'm having pre-work jitters. Hope that all goes well. Kryz hwaiting!

♫ I miss DBSK!

As much as I love Micky, he just looks really ugly and scary here. ROFL!!!

BIG FOREHEAD!!!! RUN!!! LMAO!!

Though aside from the scary forehead, I spot some sexy collarbones. Yum!

Cute Ricky! And of course Harangie! Cute doggie. XDDDDDDDDD

♣ Dreamt about Yunho last night. I was in a fan meet somewhere and Yunho was the only TVXQ member present. He performed some songs and he talked about his projects. It was like a solo fan meet. He was wearing a Miroticon shirt (the BKK gold version). A lot of people where taking pics of him. He took pics with some people as well. Then he had to leave while the fangirls where shouting for more. Hmm... it seems that my subconscious can't get over all those issues happening with TVXQ right now. Yunho as a solo act in my dream? Temporary solo act is good but solo act forever is not.

♣ I made a 'Nobody' ringtone for my boss. The 'Nobody' craze has hit the Phils a month back and it's only now that my officemate and boss get affected by it. Since I'm a nice person (hahahahaha!!), I offered to make a ringtone for my boss and to give my officemate an mp3 copy of 'Nobody'. My officemate can't get enough of 'Nobody' to the point that she's trying to memorize their dance steps. It gets kinda irritating to me though because 'Nobody' is so 2008. It's really getting old.

♣ I'm starting to dislike my new internet provider. We just changed our provider to Skycable Broadband and it already sucks. It's sooooo slow. We're paying for 1.5 mbps for nothing. It's like dial-up! Imagine 5.1 kb/sec download speed? Shit. It totally sucks. The only good thing here is that the connection is not intermittent. At least my DLs don't get cut-off. There are times that the speed is fast but it only happened to me for about 1-2 hours. Man... Internet providers in the PH sucks big time!!!

♣ Today is my last non-working holiday. Once I start working with my new team, I won't be having non-working holidays. Since my new team is catering to UK employees, we have to be in the office even if it's a holiday. T_T Now I must enjoy this day to the fullest.

♣ Too many HTTG paparazzi pics... Too many recent airport paparazzi pics... I'm tired of saving them all.

♣ I love today's gloomy weather. It has been raining for a few days now though it's not continuous. Today, it's not raining in my side of the country but the sky is totally grey. I love it.